If I’m honest with myself, and with you, I am not a super patient person. Maybe it’s just me, or maybe it is from growing up in a microwave generation. So, when I start a new venture or have an idea, I start envisioning it happening at rapid speeds. Being in shape in 30 days, at the top of my business in 6 months, having a discipline under my belt within a week. I hope I don’t sound too crazy to you. I’m a slightly impatient dreamer.
I remember as a young person entering adulthood, I was at a camp and praying for God’s will for my future . I felt God tell me, in that still small voice, to “wait on Him.” Wait on Him? What am I waiting for? Do I just sit and do nothing until lightening comes from heaven? Well, I am now 31 and just starting to feel like I’m understanding what He was trying to say to me.
Waiting on God just means waiting on His timing and on how He thinks something should come to pass. Waiting on Him could mean waiting until my spirit is where He wants it to be. How long I wait depends on when I get in tune with Him. Something that He meant to happen within days or months, could turn into years because I am stubbornly holding onto something He’s wanting to change in me. Or waiting on Him could just be living with a readiness to do anything He has for you to do, and when He speaks that thing, it happens right away. We don’t sit around doing nothing, but we live for Him and as He opens doors we walk through them. Trying things our own way doesn’t speed up the waiting. It probably makes the waiting longer. Ignoring God’s prodding to change something definitely slows down the process.
My husband and I have lived in an apartment, rented two homes, and lived with my in-laws in the almost 7 years we’ve been married. Did we want a house? Yes. Did we look at houses? Yes. Could we have bought a house? Probably. We never felt a peace about buying a home during all that time. God started working on us over the last few years on where He wanted us to go in ministry. We truly feel that it all will revolve around opening our home to share God’s love with others. When we really started to see defining direction, we had moved into my in-law’s house. I thought, “how are we supposed to do this thing and we don’t even have a home?” I felt God say again, “Wait on me.” As we prayed for direction and for a house for our family, both my husband and I started praying for a home that had space for people to come over…that it would be a place people could feel relaxed and feel Him in it…a place that was homey and inviting…that God would bless us so we could be a blessing to others…that our home would be used for His glory. We each started praying this without the other one knowing it. Our waiting was so we would know, once we got our home, that it was more than a blessing for us. It was so we would know, when He blessed us, how He wanted us to use it.
The Bible talks about asking and you shall receive. It talks about God wanting to bless His children more than we can ask or think. That He wants to give us the desires of our heart. I sincerely believe every one of these scriptures. Sometimes we have to wait until He gets our hearts and desires where they need to be before He can bless us. Before He can lead us into another chapter of our life. The scripture says to do all things to the glory of God. He may have to make us wait until the reason we want certain things in life changes to us wanting to bring glory to Him. Why do I want that new car? So other people see me or because it gives me extra space to bring people to church? Why do I want God to bless my finances? So I can have more for myself or so that I can give more to His kingdom and help people in need? I believe sometimes our “wait on Him” is really waiting on us to get the right motivation. Waiting on God doesn’t have to be painful when we ask Him to teach us in that waiting…to help us to grow in that waiting.
If you feel like you’ve been in that waiting period for a long time ask yourself, “is God trying to change me?” Has He been working on your heart and you’ve put Him off? Are the promises He’s given you not coming to pass because you haven’t let Him mold you?